i woke up crying today. its been forever since i did that. not literally but i didnt even know i was crying. woke up in tears and i was shaking. i was really scared. not scared, i was afraid. i dreamt that everyone forgot who i was. i dreamt that i tried calling my mum and i started talking to her but she couldnt hear me. i dont know. i got really frightened because my surroundings got darker. ive been keeping my emotions down for too long showing others how im always a happy and positive person that i forgot i feel like this. idk why im shaken up by it, it felt so real and im not afraid to say i am afraid. the irony huh. ive always been a pillar to everyone but i never found mine. i feel so hollow. i dont know what to do anymore. im trying to go back to sleep but i cant. i feel so weak. i feel like im losing for some reason. i dont even know what im fighting for. im so tired. i want someone to help me. but i dont. i know im just a burden to everyone. guess ille just keep this down with me longer. but its driving me crazy. i feel so alone.